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why idols?

Ever-enamoured with the allure of the feminine grotesque, idols harbour an innate propensity for meshing the sugary sweet with the enduring abyss of the self; pathos-driven ennui amidst veils of gauze and gleams of glitter. On this page are a few acts I hold close to my heart.








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Higeki no Heroine Syndrome

Entrenched in the existential malaise of contemporaneity and all its miserable foibles, with striking visuals and empowering lyrics Higeki no Heroine Syndrome came to embody the concept of being a yamikei idol. With an ethos built upon finding a perverse refuge deep within the all-consuming nadirs of self-pity, they swiftly emerged as an anomaly even amongst other underground idols dabbling in equally melancholic aestheticism. Wishing to provide salvation for self-proclaimed tragic heroines grappling with issues through their daily life such as prejudice, and discrimination, they provided a beacon for those adrift in the sea of existence. “That misery of yours is a weapon”, they declare with hoarse throats. We’re afraid of drawing closer to happiness knowing it’s doomed to fade, yet there’s still meaning in this inherent ephemerality.

For those ensnared within the restrictive confines of familial and societal oppression, wishing to dress in more eye-catching, potentially subversive styles leads one to a crossroads; uncertainty settling under society’s ever-watchful gaze. With beautiful makeup and aspirational means of dressing reflected through Larme tutorials and unique on-trend merchandise such as coffin-shaped handbags, however, Higeki no Heroine Syndrome provided inspiration to those wishing to dress in a manner that would be considered true to them. Unsurprisingly, those wishing to break free from the shackles that bound gravitate towards the group, and they quickly earned a fanbase predominantly consisting of 80% women (although estimates provided elsewhere appear to be anywhere between 80-90%). They went on to curate inclusive spaces such as performances where only women were encouragedto attend, similarly following their dreams through adhering to specialized dress codes. These gatherings provided a sanctuary free from being crushed underfoot by society’s all too weighty heel. You can wear what you want, be the person you’ve always dreamed of being.

Amidst drama-fuelled circumstances Higeki no Heroine Syndrome unfortunately disbanded in 2021, but even to this day their absence in the alt idol community is keenly felt. While perusing the e-debris of Japanese auction sites for jiraikei pieces even this past week, I found their name nestled amongst a deluge of SEO-friendly keywords as a testament to their enduring popularity. As one who similarly found solace in the group’s melancholic embrace, reassured through my own fashion sense, I still listen to their music and ardently - foolishly, really - hope that they will reunite. A pair from the group eventually went on to form their own act, and during April Fools 2024 they brought back another member – of course, it wasn’t to be. But I will remain here, hoping, as do the group’s countless fans - perhaps this is what makes us true tragic heroines.

Recommended Song: Zero Sentimental





NECRONOMIDOL

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Recommended Song: Santa Sangre


KAQRIYOTERROR

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Recommended Song: BWG


CY8ER

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Recommended Song: My Life


situasion

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Recommended Song: 2nvy


Oomori Seiko

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Recommended Song: Over the Party


Togawa Jun

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Recommended Song: Tamahime-sama





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